Wednesday, May 31, 2006
yesterday.. finally.. fell sick.. got fever ard 37.9.. got sore throat on the right side of throat... so painful tat cant swallow well.. sian... abit flu too.. slept most of the time.. feeling drowsy.. at nite.. cant join dini they all to give a pleasant surprise to wl.. so sad.. but anyway.. hope wl like tat surprise n had an unforgetable 21st bday!~
today.. duan wu jie!! i cant eat dumplings.. boo.. fever subsides abit.. but sore throat got worse.. the right side recovered slightly.. but.. the left throat start to pain lot... =( with both sides of throat being so painful.. difficulty even swallowing saliva.. how to eat dumplings in this case?? dun even feel like open my mouth to talk n sing along with the songs from radio.. luckily.. house rite now no ppl.. no one calls mi too.. haha.. ke yi an jing de guo yi zhen tian.. hee..
~~HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY to
Weiling n
Shuyun~~!
Labels: every little things
2:08 pm
Friday, May 26, 2006
yesterday is the end of my misery... yet is the start of another round of misery...
the last paper is so sucky.. the questions r broad and there r a few with hidden theory.. wat i'm confident at didnt come out eventually.. wat i had memorised were being forgotten.. wat i had remembered were being confused.. time for mi to finish the paper thoroughly wasnt enough.. wat the hell is wrong with mi!! i feel so sick now...
can anyone tell mi how to memo things well n not to confuse them when there was a hell lot of things -a yr syllabus- to get into ur head? can anyone tell mi how to write 4 essays within 3 hrs?? can anyone tell mi how write fast and think fast at the same time??? mayb i'm just way too stupid.. i'm unable to do wat the others can... ended up affected my thinking.. which affected my writing speed.. which made mi handing up an uncomplete paper...
mayb becos i wasnt at my best condition yest... ya i was feeling dizzy in the exam hall.. n ya i was having serious flu n a bit of feverish on the 2 days before my exams.. mayb i was too nervous n scare throughout the whole exam... so nervous n scare that i couldnt breathe well n make any proper thinking when doing the questions.. all these r excuses!! i'm jus being useless n stupid.. cant even handle an exam that most ppl could...
i got a feeling tat i will fail the last paper.. ya.. to pass the paper.. u nid to get 35 out of 100.. u might think is easy to pass.. ya is true.. when u got ample time to prepare.. when u r able to write 4 essays relevantly within 3 hrs.. or mayb to get a pass.. have a full focus on 2 essays.. for mi.. i'm jus unable to do it.. i dun understand how come others can do it.. pass their papers or even score in it.. this explained again my uselessness? now i understand how come the passing mark is so low..
i dun wan to retake!! firstly.. it is so expensive.. i will need to get a job asap n forsake my shopping hobby.. secondly i'm afraid of that subject.. i will puke.. i will have nightmares.. i will suffer for a yr again if i'm going to retake it... n i'm afraid that the history will repeat itself again.. jus like my a levels.. ended up wasting my time n money.. this again shows that i'm useless.. especially in this area.. where i jus couldnt get better results...
i wasnt like tat in the past.. WHYYYYY?? ever since the years after my o levels.. my results r falling.. this shows that i'm getting more stupid? or is it becos of the problem i'm having now.. i'm starting to get suspicious over it.. i did some researcher on tat problem before.. it says it will affect my concentration n make mi fatigue easily n make mi feel dizzy.. but since when did i got this problem? haiz.. jus wat's wrong with my brain n my body? so sick n tired of myself n my life.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........................
Labels: exams + results
12:53 am
Saturday, May 20, 2006
2 nice songs..
Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you Because of you
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Daniel Powter - Bad Day
Where is the moment we needed the most You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day You had a bad day
Had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day
Labels: lyrics + MVs + Ads
12:34 am
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
啊!! 天气好热啊!! 受不了了!! 2 more papers past.. erm... dunno wat to comment abt them..
不想想太多 (also a song by Tarcy Su).. haha... cos for the previous 2 papers.. i went back home.. think think think alot.. end up myself being very tense.. esp my brain... arh... exploding sooon!!
anyway.. yest.. after my paper.. went out with xy to shop for awhile.. bought things tat i do not need them urgently.. nail polish n a hair clip (each bought 1 n got discount overall.. is quite pretty de.. hee).. after which went out with my sec frens for celebration of bday.. haha.. after dinner went to shop ard.. n bought another small hair clip... lol... wanted to buy earrings ($2 each pair) too.. but dunno how come i ended up not buying.. haa.. that day dun have mood to shop (paiseh xy!) haha.. den somemore the ICON building (besides bugis junction) which we went to shop.. is so patheic small.. haha.. den some shops rest on tat day.. so ppl if u wan to shop at ICON.. dun go on tues.. lol..
today.. went klunch with my bro n her gf.. so extra rite?? haha.. anyway.. wanted to say tat i really long time nv go sing le.. kbox has changed it display format on the screen... so diff.. n quite alot new songs.. haha... but today the flu bug visited mi.. i end up singing n blowing my nose all the time... so sian.. so now headache le... as usual... y got flu? mayb due to a sudden release of part of the stress?? haha.. rubbish..
Labels: every little things
11:44 pm
Thursday, May 11, 2006
2 papers down..
the 1st paper.. the one i feared most.. haiz.. PRAY hard hard i can pass... cos i dun wan to retake tat unit.. i'm already sick n tired of that.. AND is EXP to retake!!
today's the 2nd paper.. supposed to be my most confident paper.. but this yr paper think is quite hard.. i think it was harder than mock.. which our lecturer said was difficult.. haha.. there goes my 1st class honour grade =( now pray hard that i could earn ard 60 marks? haha.. working out the paper is like riding a roller coaster.. haha.. so depress when cant get the answer.. den so happy when i manage to get the answer that i assume is right.. lol
nevertheless.. today i'm still very happy.. becos.. i saw that shuai ge be4 my exam again!!! so happy!! he had brightened up my day!! this is how it happened... i was q-ing up for toilet with my frens (fyi.. s'pore expo toilet is so patheic small and there's onli 2 cubicles.. even though there's toilet for each hall.. but still is not enough for a huge hall of ppl =.=) den as i was chatting to my fren behind mi, he walked by the toilet n looked in (cos the queue has stretched to the outside).. den i caught his glance.. but is a super short one.. cos he looked away immediately n continue his pathway to the icy cold huge exam hall.. k la.. i'm being hua chi again... =p
after the paper, went to the metro sales with frens after lunch.. shun bian u noe? since the sales is held at expo hall 5.. lol.. shopped for 2 hrs.. bought sweet stuffs (3 for $10--shared with frens) n female stuff(cheap cheap).. tried a pair of jeans (U.P $70 now $29).. though is nice n fitting but is not nice at the back.. so sad..
i'm behaving as if i'd finished the whole exams.. haha.. cham.. later gonna start revising.. mon hopefully is not another doomsday... cos mon paper is another one that i most worried of.. n tues hopefully the 2nd last paper can help to replace the marks i'd lost in today's paper.. lao tian bao you =P
oh ya.. after paper on tues.. will be going for FOX sales.. according to my fren.. sales end at 18 may.. haha.. shopping~~~
add ons to the list i want to do
-touch my precious gu zheng (been 4 yrs since i touch it..poor thing)
-learn how to play drums (thinking onli... drums exp..=( )
Labels: exams + results
9:17 pm
Saturday, May 06, 2006
COUNTDOWN.......
1st paper---4 days
2nd paper--5 days
3rd paper--9 days
4th paper--10 days
LAST paper--19 days
looking forward to the LAST day!!!! had planned tat day event.. so happy.. at least there's something for mi to look forward to..
never really plan what i should do.. after the exams.. cos normally after exams, i won't follow according to the plan i made.. haha..
but there r alot of things to be done..
1 shopping!!!!!!
2 find job!!!!!
3 slimming!!!! (optimum weight=45kg) -- mayb sign up courses.. say kickboxing or mtv-dancing? or self training? anyone interested to join mi?
4 try to cook a few dishes!!!
5 pass my driving!!
6 tidy messy room!
so far like that.. but there's more.. i cant remember... brain dead from excessive input of information today... tmr( or rather today.. since is 12+am) is election day.. my area no need to vote(anyway.. i cant vote too even there's one).. hehe.. going sleep.. nitez~
Labels: exams + results
12:32 am
Monday, May 01, 2006
To all shopping-lovers~!!here's a site for online shopping.. their clothes r jus simply too sweet n nice!! i love their dresses n a few tops.. i wan to get them!! but.. i've nv try to shop online.. feel very insecure.. haha.. mayb after exams go yan jiu the site...
http://www.papergirlsshop.blogspot.com/Labels: every little things
11:40 pm
