currently, i'm working alone in the very-quiet-very-cold-office.. so sian.. somemore i'm doing a very brainless job - testing of a new system by keying into the data and check whether is there any error.. zzz.. so sleepy..
so many depressing things happened to me.. so depress..
first thing first.. i have GAINED weight!! alamak.. so sad u know.. especially when u look into a mirror and see that 'someone' is going to spoil ur usual clothes by expanding them.. zzz.. sadded.. initially still thinking of making use of the going-to-start-yoga lesson to help mi to lose some weight.. but it is being cancelled.. zzz thus, i must draft out a weight losing plan myself liao.. sob sob.. dunno whether i got the determination to execute this plan.. zzz..
second thing.. all because of yesterday's morning lecturer's fault.. he was there warning and 'threatening' us to really pay attention to this module, saying that this module is not what we assumed to be that easy etc etc.. which i already know.. that's why i am being so stress.. then, he was there saying, 'I do not want to see all of you passing all other units and failing this. Especially for the graduating students, I do not wish to see anyone who cannot graduate because of this unit.' =O omg.. add on to my stress.. zzz.. so scary.. i am so afraid that the last sentence will become true in my case.. *shivers*
haiz.. gtg back to work liao.. lunch break's almost over.. =(
1 more month to x'mas~~ usually i don't have the habit of exchanging xmas presents or getting them for others.. nor do i have a wish for any desired item.. but but.. dear santa, can i have a wish this year? ^-^ i wish for a DS game set.. can can? keke.. it's a want rather than a need, thus i do not have extra cash for it.. cos the price can allow me to get a new handphone u know.. i would rather change my hp with that amount of money.. but seeing others playing it, plus the games and design of the game set make me wanna to get a hold of it, for as long as it allows me to.. ^-^
anyway, there's a xmas short break for me this year~ yeah~~!! but what should i do during this break? too expensive to go overseas.. so there goes my touring plan.. maybe can tidy up my room thoroughly? go jalan jalan with friends? gather all friends for gatherings? hmmm.. really need good planning for the week to prevent waste of precious time.. less than a month time's to my break.. looking forward to it~ meanwhile i should try to stop myself for getting too stress up from the increasingly school plus workload..
wanted to make full use of this wkend to do revision.. but... haiz.. as usual i slacked..
sat was a tv+games day for me.. lol.. i think there are too much things to be done.. so much so that i dunno where to start and thus ended up slacking.. haha.. anyway, i had decided to start it on sun, which is today... succeeded in starting to do something.. but not as productive as i wanted to be.. cos i couldnt concentrate once i on my laptop halfway through the revisions.. started to play online games and surfing.. plus, today is a 'flour' day.. there's stockup of breads and cakes out of sudden.. got to help to finish the breads (from yesterday so cant leave till tmr) and try the cakes(wedding cake + home-made logcake from aunt, which arrive today).. so ended up visiting the kitchen most of the time..
my aunt made the logcake herself.. she likes to make all kinds of cakes, pastries and kuehs, and she will make extras for us and other relatives.. so nice of her.. anyway.. this is a not bad try (well, maybe she tried before many times but it's our first time eating this kind of cake from her).. it's dark choc coated, tasted not bad cos it's not too sweet.. it will be tastier if the filling is normal cream spread instead of chocolate spread(cos it hardened when put in fridge, so spoilt the swissroll 口感) got the white xmas feel.. lol..the little decorations are cute.. haha..
this song is quite nice.. anyway.. the 片头曲 (2 versions: one by Tank+林宥嘉[prefer this..hee], one by Tank himself) is also as nice! a song specially for this show..
looking forward to this show.. though it's a bball drama again.. haha.. mainly becos of hebe~ haha.. cos she seldom acts in drama.. she, from a super newbie in acting and one who doesnt know how to play bball (or can say she's not interested), to now one who can act and play quite well (heard the percentage of getting the ball into net is 80-90%)..
anyway.. this drama is airing soon in tw.. i think tmr.. haha.. but i got no time to watch.. alamak..
this song is so nice~ like the lyrics.. esp the last verse..
你的姿态 你的青睐 我存在在 你的存在 你以为爱 就是被爱 你挥霍了 我的崇拜
风筝有风 海豚有海 我存在在 我的存在 所以明白 所以离开 所以不再 为爱而爱 自己存在 在你之外
the words really show determination in leaving..
this mv is so beautifully taken.. awww... she was crying in this mv.. so sad.. btw.. this mv is taken at a chapel in japan (think is hokkaido).. it's a chapel by water (heard there are alot newly weds holding their ceremony there and there's the shallow-water pathway for couples to walk down.. like an aisle).. the design is simple yet special.. beautiful~
i had wasted my precious time yesterday, a public holiday.. no mood to go out.. and instead of doing some follow-ups with my sch stuff.. i ended up slacking away.. totally got no mood to do anything, let alone sch stuff.. i just want to laze around.. cos i was feeling very tired.. tired of everything.. find everything so meaningless.. everything includes life..
then.. i got very guilty for not touching my sch stuff.. so i tried to study at night.. but i only did a very tiny part of it cos i couldnt concentrate much.. so non-productive.. haiz..
why everytime whenever i am busy, i will plan what and how to do them during free time, but when the free time is really here, i'm always unable to get myself to follow what i had planned earlier. i am very mad about myself for this!! grrr...
busy busy busy busy.. busy again.. with work.. i have been working almost everyday since the 2nd week of oct.. except for weekends and the days i'm having full-day lessons..
my school stuff- tutorial qns and articles to be read- have been piling up.. i think i can see quite a big heap of to-dos... so sian.. wanted to start but don't know how, don't know which to do first.. haiz... it seems that i am going to take ages to finish the accumulating pile.. cos i am not capable enough.. but.. cannot!! i'm already lagging, i cannot stretch the gap any further.. arghhhh...
i realised i've been posting about sch, work, stress and sianz.. where is the post for outing/shopping? sob sob.. i miss shopping.. i need to get tops, slippers and bag... T_T
Jolyn_Jielin
*came to earth on 02aug
*not a typical leo
*obessed with stars and star-related stuffs
*likes 'mouth-less' kitty
*current status : still as busy
Desires
eArn lots $$
sLim doWn
dream car
find my prince
learn music instruments
learn languages
travel around the world
got the white xmas feel.. lol..
the little decorations are cute.. haha..