Thursday, June 07, 2007
yeah!!
finally!!
my school year 2 has officially ended!!
had the last paper yesterday.
can do well and even score if were to memorise well.
but i belongs to the category where i will forget almost all when stepped into exam hall.
so.. ya..
shall worry when the time for the results to be released is here.
*cross fingers*
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after exams got so many things to do..
some need cash.. but i lack them..
haiz..
should i get myself a full time job until my school reopens?
or should i stick back to this 1 week assignment monthly and treasure the remaining slacking holidays before i attend lessons in the social school?
sigh..
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talking about work.. this links me to talk about other things..
i realised very long ago that i do not have most leo good traits..
like leadership..
i was chosen as a leader since primary sch to jc, as project team leader or just group leader.
dont be mistaken, during secondary and jc times, i was appointed as leader cos there was no one to take over this position.. ( in primary school - appointed by teacher)
seriously, i dont think i have the traits for being a leader.
i dont have the power to influence people, to lead them well, to produce efficiency. (from management studies)
i remembered there's someone (used to be in my group) who wrote inside the jc class photo album, saying i'm a good leader. then, there's another one saying: ''you good leader meh? ok la". well, i didnt get angry over this.
i admit i am not a good leader.
just a useless leader with no ability.
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let's talk about the most recent case.
a normal leo wont be facing such situation ba?
i was asked to look for ppl for the 1 week assignment job.
i wanted in the first place to ask a more experienced person to go on the first day to help out.
i was worried that they can't handle very well.
cos, i was not able to work on the first few days and so are the others who are more experienced.
well, it turned out to be i was like forcing her to work.
my good intention of helping became like that.
i sounded very demanding?
if so, i apologised.
all my fault.
the tone i was using wasnt right, i didnt know how to phrase it in a better way.
my pr skills are damn lousy. (normal leo should not have this problem)
i had underestimated their abilities, i had over worried for them, i had think too much.
i should have let them decide and settle in the first place and dont care about whatever consequences it has.
i shouldnt have been a busybody in the first place.
so kapoh.
all my fault.
useless me.
Labels: exams + results, thoughts + feelings
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