postive feelings - satisfaction, happy, stressless-for-a-moment - were felt becos: 1. the proj has finally completed. 2. able to knock off on the dot finally! 3. had a gd long lunch since the dino was not around.
negative feelings - sian, lost, unhappy - due to: 1. mon = blue = sianzzz 2. proj finished. suddenly dunno what to do as there are HEAPS of backlogs to be done. dunno where to start with. 3. i think i screwed up something.
just by the look at what i have listed down.. it seems that i have a balanced portion of mix feelings.. but.. judging by appearance is not gd enough.. the truth is that the negative outweighs the positive.. haiz...
oh no.. spent too much recently!! payday faster come!!
haiz.. wasted my 2 precious sat and sun.. i din manage to do what i wanted to.. instead sleeping and slacking away my time.. boo..
my desk is getting messier!! the floor besides my desk is turning into a little storage corner for bags of newly bought items soon..
tmr is mon.. work work work = sian sian sian.. not good feeling dreadful you know? cos this will de-motivate myself.. shucks.. i must stay motivated!! gambatte!
flu today.. shld slp early rite?
ok.. gtg slp.. shall keep this complain post short..
long time nv blog le.. i got tons of things to blog but got no time to sit down and type all out.. sianz...
feel so sian recently.. or should i say i have never feel better than sian at all..
i got alot of things which i cant get them right... haiz...
y i always ot de? y other teams no need? dont understand.. so unfair.. i know this is the so-called working society.. but jus dun understand.. so many projects piling up.. so many datelines DEADlines.. and that DINOSAUR (this is how i 'term' our boss) thinks that we are so free that even ask us to help out other teams.. kaoz... does she it has eyes/brain?
so mad with myself oso.. cant stand my blur-ness at work.. y cant i be smarter to get things right at the correct time? i am so 'blunt'.. too naive/innocent may be the best word to describe me.. haiz.. i am so stupid..
my work performance is so not up to my own standard.. sometimes i feel that i have care too much till the extend that i dun wan to care about it anymore.. so contradicting... no motivation to work.. find it meaningless to achieve the so-called targets in work.. i give up...
i feel so stressed up.. so tired.. have problems with breathing well.. my heart is also sending out warning signals.. almost on the verge to breakdown.. or should i say it's my turn to reach bottleneck? i cant stand it...
nothing interests me liao.. dun feel like going out.. dun feel like shopping (my favourite hobby).. i have planned out a list of things to do.. but no mood to do them at all.. just feel like coping myself in my room.. if i am doing anything, it's more like an obligation to do.. i am beginning to feel like i am a robot.. with the same daily routine..
....當生存是 規則 不是 妳的選擇...
........終於 我的生命 只剩生存 活著 只會呼吸吃飯喝水的 生活..........
i just want to find some means to release all my bottled up emotions..
i think if these arent release.. sooner or later you guys wont see me...
ha.
ps: i know i should be thankful to have my rice bowl secured.. i am indeed.. just that i am feeling imbalance.. not happy with how that dino managed her its subordinates.. job satisfaction=0%
another fav song under the fast-tempo songs category.. i love this song.. lyrics is fun! melody is special.. it talks about a vampire's life.. n it changed my mindset on the vampire.. they can be pitiful living creature in the world.. haha..
ashin is the vampire! omg.. he really doesnt have the evil look nor the murderous look.. hao3 xun4 wor.. ke ai instead.. wahahahaha... n i think he seems to be uncomfortable/awkward with tat pose(holding on to the female model).. hahaha.. but.. he only used 1 take on this act.. cool..
Jolyn_Jielin
*came to earth on 02aug
*not a typical leo
*obessed with stars and star-related stuffs
*likes 'mouth-less' kitty
*current status : still as busy
Desires
eArn lots $$
sLim doWn
dream car
find my prince
learn music instruments
learn languages
travel around the world
