Monday, March 16, 2009
long time nv blog le.. i got tons of things to blog but got no time to sit down and type all out.. sianz...
feel so sian recently.. or should i say i have never feel better than sian at all..
i got alot of things which i cant get them right... haiz...
y i always ot de? y other teams no need? dont understand.. so unfair.. i know this is the so-called working society.. but jus dun understand.. so many projects piling up.. so many
datelines DEADlines.. and that DINOSAUR (this is how i 'term' our boss) thinks that we are so free that even ask us to help out other teams..
kaoz...
does
she it has eyes/brain?
so mad with myself oso.. cant stand my blur-ness at work.. y cant i be smarter to get things right at the correct time? i am so 'blunt'.. too naive/innocent may be the best word to describe me..
haiz..
i am so stupid..
my work performance is so not up to my own standard.. sometimes i feel that i have care too much till the extend that i dun wan to care about it anymore.. so contradicting... no motivation to work.. find it meaningless to achieve the so-called targets in work..
i give up...
i feel so stressed up.. so tired.. have problems with breathing well.. my heart is also sending out warning signals.. almost on the verge to breakdown.. or should i say it's my turn to reach bottleneck?
i cant stand it...
nothing interests me liao.. dun feel like going out.. dun feel like shopping (my favourite hobby).. i have planned out a list of things to do.. but no mood to do them at all.. just feel like coping myself in my room.. if i am doing anything, it's more like an obligation to do.. i am beginning to feel like i am a robot.. with the same daily routine..
....當生存是 規則 不是 妳的選擇...........終於 我的生命 只剩生存 活著 只會呼吸吃飯喝水的 生活..........i just want to find some means to release all my bottled up emotions..
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
ktv anyone?
or any alternative?
i think if these arent release.. sooner or later you guys wont see me...
ha.
ps: i know i should be thankful to have my rice bowl secured.. i am indeed.. just that i am feeling imbalance.. not happy with how that dino managed
her its subordinates..
job satisfaction=0%
Labels: thoughts + feelings, work
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