Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Damn, I hate this feeling.
Being nice to ppl is good, but being too nice is not always the case.
I’m not talking about back-stabbing in this case; my dear colleagues (of same level and a few from sup level) are nice. I’ve once said that one of the reasons for staying in this company is that I have nice colleagues, really. If anyone leaves here someday, I guess, the rest of us will start to leave this place one by one.
I just hate myself for being too nice sometimes, end up making myself feel miserable. How to change this stupid character of mine? Sometimes, I think I am being too soft, too naïve, too stupid to think that this world is perfect; all are very nice and kind in nature. 好天真啊。。I have sidetracked.
I don’t understand why I like to give in most of the times. I hate it! But somehow I cannot control myself to stop giving in. Feel so fed up. Grrrr…
There are many major and minor cases. Major cases – can’t remember and don’t wish to remember. Minor ones are really very minor, can don’t bother to mention. But I simply cannot tahan this liao!
My team consists of 3 ppl – sup, buddy and myself. My sup has mentioned before that my buddy and I cannot take leave on the same day together, as we need to cover each other if one is absent, except for unexpected cases like 2 on MCs or 1 on MC, 1 on Leave. K fine, what can we do? Sup already gives out such order le.
Last year CNY, my buddy wanted to take leave as her hubby had asked her to take together with him. I wanted to take also, cos I remembered last year, we have to start work on the 3rd day. Usually my 2nd day of CNY is very hectic, so naturally, I would like to take leave on 3rd day. But since my buddy is taking leave cos her hubby has asked her to, so I gave in and let her take. I cham siong-ed with my sup, so in the end, I managed to take leave for the morning.
This year, the history repeated. Zzz. I simply don’t like her hubby. He is such a male chauvinist. My buddy told me that her hubby has been reminding her to take leave on 17 Feb. Note the word “reminding”. I really doubt so; I think it’s more of ordering. Her hubby is kinda well-known for being 大男人 in our dept. Haha. I know I am being evil to bad-mouth him, but I simply cannot tahan. Sometime in Jan, I asked my buddy if she is going to take leave on 17th cos I most probably will be taking, she replied that there isn’t any intention, now that when I want to apply leave for that day, she told me this. Now what? =(
As some of you know, our company has this birthday leave policy, my buddy’s birthday falls on 12 Feb, and so she is not working on that day. So I am thinking, since she is going on leave since Friday (12th), can she not to take leave on 17th? In case you are wondering, they are not going oversea during CNY period and the hubby has always wanted her to take leave to accompany him whenever he takes leave (huh?? I understand the desire to spend time together, but I think this is a bit extreme). At most, he will bring her out to celebrate her birthday on the actual day. (Her hubby is not the romantic type, FYI)
So, me being a nice colleague give in to her and let her apply leave on 17th. I hate myself. Why can’t I insist all the way? End up making myself feel grouchy and miserable. Idiot me. I am not angry with my buddy. I am just angry with myself, and her hubby. =(
Hmph… Enough of complaining. It’s time for lunch. Cya.
Oh btw, can you guys do me a favour?
Help me point out my weaknesses k? can let me know through msn/email.
thanks =)
eh.. will I be talking to the air? got ppl read my blog de? hurhur.. haha..
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